Saturday, January 7, 2012

The Journey: Part 4


(For the integrity of the piece I must ask that you please read part 1 here, part 2 here, and part 3 here before continuing with part 4 below. Stay tuned tomorrow for the conclusion! Thank you for reading!) 


Lexie shook off the memory as the snow picked up.  She slowed as snow hit the window in huge clumps.  She realized she'd been crying when her windshield wipers took away the snow and the road was still blurry in front of her.  As she swiped a tear from her cheek she began to wish she'd never said such horrible things to Easton. Besides, it had been his influence that had instilled the dream of travel in her heart; she should be thanking him, not yelling at him.  She did want him to go with her, but she felt as though it would be ruining his career. He just got the job at Carlson and Sons Publishing, and it would look great on his resume some day.  But he'd only been there a couple of months. If he left now, what would that look like to future employers? She could be ruining his whole career, just to keep him in her life.  Thoughts batted back and forth as she continued to drive.
            Maybe I should stay... I could turn around right now and go running into his arms, beg for forgiveness.  But then I wouldn't be true to myself; do I want to give that up for a relationship?  But it's Easton... oh gosh, what should I do? I can't stay cooped up in Garrisburg forever, and I know that eventually we'd leave, but I'd be giving up my own dreams for him.  But I can't expect him to wait around for me to find myself; what if he's moved on by the time I get back? He doesn’t deserve this. He’s always been there for me, and I’m stupid to think he won’t always be there… Before Easton, Lexie had been perfectly happy staying in Garrisburg.  Five years ago, she wouldn't have even imagined the possibility of leaving Garrisburg; people just didn't do that.  Garrisburg was the kind of town that people lived in forever. They raised their families in the same house that they had been raised in, sent them to the same schools where the same teachers might even still be teaching.  It was a big deal when a 'lifer' picked up and moved on.
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            “You've never been out of the country?” Easton asked Lexie. They had been eating lunch together ever since that first day that Lexie had approached him.
            “Well, no. I've been out of the state though. My grandma lives near the Outer Banks in North Carolina and I used to spend the summers there when I was little,” Lexie responded, playfully shoving him in the side with her elbow.
           “But that's still in the country... Don't you want to see what life is like in other parts of the world? Like, say, Italy. My dad was stationed near Vicenza for a few years when I was little, then we moved to the UK, just outside of London for awhile, and from there we went to Bamberg, Germany before moving to the states. I learned so much in all of those different places,” he said, his eyes glossy with memory. “I don't think I would be the same person that I am if I hadn't lived in all of those places.”
            “I guess that makes sense. Was London beautiful? I've heard about it... It sounds nice.”
            “You should go someday; you would love it.”
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            And here she was, on her way to the airport to fly to London, and she couldn't even celebrate it with Easton.  He'd gotten so angry when she told him she was going... no, he'd been hurt.  She decided it would be easier to go if he didn't know when she was leaving. Goodbyes were never her strong point, not that she'd ever really had to say goodbye before.  Maybe I don't want to say goodbye to him either... maybe I should turn around, go get him.  It had gotten completely dark out, and the stretch of highway she was driving on didn't have streetlights. A car ahead of her slid a bit on the ice, and Lexie's knuckles turned white as she held the steering wheel a little tighter. 
            The next ten seconds were a blur. A deer jumped out from behind a cluster of trees, and Lexie jumped on the breaks. As she did, she hit a patch of ice and her car started to spin out of control.  Lexie squeezed her eyes shut tight, letting out a frightened scream as she tried to control the vehicle but couldn’t.

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