I promise I didn't lie to you.

So, it's been four months since my last post... a few days more than that actually. I promise I didn't lie to you, I really am writing again. I've found it to be a little difficult to have the mental energy necessary to sit down and actually work on my writing after a long day of work. I still don't have a defined writing space in my beautifully cozy and quaint apartment. A defined space would be a constant reminder that I shouldn't be ignoring my writing. With a defined space, a desk, a small table, I would have something staring at me longingly from the corner, begging me to feed it with my time and mental capacity. 

Until then, though, I suppose working in coffee shops with friends will be a good stand in. It's a throwback to college that is strangely comforting, and overwhelming all at the same time. 

'I'm twenty-five, should I be sitting in this coffee shop pretending to be a serious writer? Pretending, pssh. I am a serious writer...I'm just a para during the day. I'm practically superman. By day a lowly para an a public school, by night super-writer! Wow, I'm lame. Am I cool enough to be sitting here? I don't have a MacBook, hopefully my iPad will suffice. There, now I fit in. Do I want to fit in? Probably not. No, I didn't bike here, did you? Oh you did, huh? And your hair still looks that good? Well la-ti-da, I drove, and I parked in a garage, for shame!'

Just a few of the thoughts constantly nagging at me as I sit here trying to focus my mind on writing, only to have it wander to people watching and Facebook instead. It's a hard knock life, and I don't even get to break out in song randomly. 

Really though, I'm in a good place. I am so grateful for where I am in life. I love my tiny apartment, mostly because of the people I share the house with. I love the hectic chaos that sometimes ensues in a community built to help those around us. I have friends who care about my mental health as much as they care about my physical health, and who feed me sometimes just because I happen to be in their apartment at dinner time. 

In my writing world I'm currently working on a long short for a contest, which I will be putting on facebook (hopefully) soon with a link for you to download.  It is going along slowly, but I'm hoping to devote a chunk of time to it this week so I can finish it ahead of schedule... we'll see. 

If you're still reading, know that I appreciate you and I apologize...I'm officially ranting now. Have a fantastic week.