On My Own

Perhaps I've been looking at this
from the wrong direction...

Maybe I've been fooling myself,
because I subconsciously wanted to...

It's possible I'm not as scared
as I've convinced myself I am...

Because this could be a new start,
a chance to move forward...

And that's what everyone keeps telling me,
but my heart isn't ready to let go...

I guess I have to find out for myself,
figure out the equation alone...

Just Words

I'm not sure you understand
the meaning that those words have,
or the complexity with which I feel them
when you throw them about so casually.

I'm not joking when I say they scare me,
when I cower in their presence...
it isn't a joke to me,
yet you laugh so easily.

So forgive me,
when I change the subject.

Nail Polish

I have taken up a hobby,
one with which I previously...
dabbled.

It isn't very creative,
nor does it serve a great purpose,
but it takes great precision.

There's the choosing,
then the cleaning,
the shaping,
the painting,
the waiting.

...and in a few short days,
a week if you're lucky,
the chipping.

But something that once
irritated me so,
now gives me happiness.

For once the cycle ends,
it is time to begin again.

Grandpa

A squirrel darted in front of my car today;

I pushed on the brakes to spare it's life.

As I watched it cross to the other side,

a memory hit me...

of a sweet smile and a happy laugh,

tanned, aging skin and a chaise lounge.

And I couldn't help but smile. 

Dear Daughter

Another Dear Daughter post, inspired by wonderful women in my life.

Dear Daughter,
Fitgerald said, "Life starts all over again when it gets crisp in the fall."

Right now, I'm hoping and praying that's true. In a way, I guess I already know it is. So, what I'm really trying to say is, keep holding on. Maybe life is difficult right now; maybe it feels like a struggle. But everything will get better. This is one moment in your life... one blip in the much bigger picture.

A close friend and I were chatting, and she reminded me that we only see this one part of our life. We see the immediate, the right now. We see the past, and where we've come from. But God can see the whole picture. He holds our lives in His strong hands. That is one place where we will always be safe.

Fall is coming.
Winter is coming.
Spring is coming.
Summer is coming.

Each new season brings new life in a unique way. Remember that, and keep going.
Always.

Some things are too beautiful for words.
Samantha's Baptism is one of those things.

Time Flies By

One day passes,
then suddenly three
and next thing I know,
it's been a week
a month
a year

And I am changing every day,
so are you.

But minutes become hours
and hours become days,
that become weeks

and suddenly it will be
December,
then May
and August
then December all over again.

And we will be completely different,
but just the same.